What Tomorrow Brings

Tomorrow is major brain surgery to remove the 1 by 2 inch tumor still hanging out in David's head.  I suppose I'm a little nervous. Two major brain surgeries in just over a month is no joke. The increased paralysis, slurred speech and frustration over the last few days have only increased our anxiety.  Emotional exhaustion is ever present.

When the world seems heavy its always best for me to look at the lighter parts of my reality.  Had I chosen to attend grad school this year instead of Thailand I'd be trying to figure out if I'd be dropping out of school to be with my family or staying despite the problems at home. I'm grateful I don't have to make that decision and I'm grateful I don't have to start over.  The years of visiting GA while in Philadelphia means that I have two amazing networks of people in both states who care about me very much.  It has meant that growing roots in Gainesville has been beyond easy. I've been able to start a relationship despite my pain and am enjoying that immensely. 

Regardless of the lighter side of life this process is far from easy.  The fear is often present.  But I realize that despite the ever present fear and the ongoing process that I am not alone. Far from alone.  There is some sort of peace in this.

Tomorrow the surgery starts at 11am at Piedmont Hospital in Atlanta.  David and I will make the trek down to the hospital tonight to avoid morning traffic. We have to check in by 7:45 for a fancy stealth MRI that will aid in the surgical procedure.  We'll be staying in hotel like rooms that the hospital provides and we'll be eating out at our favorite restaurant and then chilling.  It'll be nice to just hang out with my bro and not have a real agenda for the evening.

It is the reality that all will be well or it won't.  And either way God's will has got me on this one.  If you'd like to stay updated on David's procedures you can search "David's Virtual Waiting Room" on facebook to get more consistent updates from my parents and myself as the day goes on tomorrow.  I thank you for all your love, support and prayers.