Roller coaster doesn't really even begin to describe it. The ups and downs, hospital changes, doctor changes, med changes and complications and frustrations have continued. The only thing consistent in my life in the last month is inconsistency. As of now I sit in the ER waiting for the doctors to determine if David has regressed or if the changes are normal. This morning I got a call from David in a panic... his paralysis had increased and seemed to be moving from his right and progressing to the left and his speech was much more slurred.
After some discussion and waiting we've taken Dave to the ER just to make sure things aren't worse... or in the very least to see whats going on. As of now his surgery to remove the rest of his tumor is still scheduled for Tuesday and we don't think that should change at all. We're waiting on the ER docs to look at the scan, consult with his specialists and to let us know what, if anything, has changed. At that point we'll know if they'll admit him or not.
The emotional stress that goes along with all this is rather incredible. It enables one to get through emergency or scary situations with ease and yet puts one on the edge of wanting to break down and sob. Finding the balance between his care and my own isn't easy for me. Its a process and one that enables me to grow.
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